Sneak peak at Disco Day

 Homecoming week is coming.  My other 3 kiddos were never really into the spirit weeks. Even the cheerleader. The would do some here and there but never all of the days and never planned out. My youngest two. Definitely different.  They’re figuring out what they have and what they can borrow. Neon, disco, characters etc. and the baby girl ended up on court so she had to quickly find someone’s suit to borrow for the newspaper photos. Thankfully she found one that fit well enough and we only had to buy the shoes. So we’re planning on getting the momma a gift card to thank her for letting us borrow and save money.  But Amazon had a great supply of fun disco accessories and on the cheap. Here’s what Jae will have on…with a shirt of course. No violating dress code. Lol

My dearest boys

 

When I get onto you for things like not saying goodnight to me because you’re still a little sour I wouldn’t let you do something you wanted it’s NOT because I am hurt. Don’t get me wrong I love goodnights and hugs but I’ll get over it. I know it’s a passing frustration. But the reason I tell you to do it anyways is so that when you’re in a relationship with your forever love you don’t do that to them.  I want you to get past it and over a small disappointment or disagreement you will have with people you love.  It’s inevitable. Always tell them anyways. Be good men and let the small things go.  Love. Choose love. 

Last birthday of the year for the kids…

 And it’s Chelsi. Happy 18th sweet girl. From premie baby under 4 pounds and considered special needs to a high school senior applying to nursing schools. You all are growing up too fast but I love everyone of you so much. 

Cousins helping her find her money gift. Lol. They had a great time. 

My baby boy

 

He went from this pudgy little baby boy we didn’t even know existed across the world to this amazing, sweet, smart young man we had the pleasure to raise. Happiest 15th birthday to my baby boy.  We love you beyond words and measure. 

Sad brownies

 These are the sad brownies my daughter made me. She made them while I was sitting with Ryder a couple of nights ago. She made them because she sad she felt like I needed some comfort food and sad brownies sounded right for all the crying she saw me doing over the past week. I did need them and I appreciate them. These are sweet gestures in life. I will miss Ryder. 

 

We said goodbye to one of our sweet boys.  He went peacefully and after lots of love and goodbyes from all of us. Our little “crackhead” can walk again where he is and has no more pain. We love you Ryder. No more tears. 

Limited time left with us

 He was supposed to show improvement by today.  

He’s not. 

He has no control of bladder at all. So we have to often wash him down so he doesn’t sit in it for too long.  He’s an outside dog so this is hard on him to just be in a kennel.  He still has no feeling in between his toes or anywhere in his back legs. He won’t smile. Yes, he was one of those dogs that had a creepy smile when he was happy.  He barely looks at us but is starting to a little more. Like he knows we’re doing the best we can to take care of him and keep him comfortable until we make the decision.  We’re tentatively thinking Tuesday. We don’t know if we’re being selfish by keeping him or being hopeful.  Probably a little selfish.  

Today though. We were able to get him outside for fresh air. The air temps are in the upper 70s so we gave him his bath outside and then got him over to the kayaks to lie down. This was always one of his favorite spots. We thought maybe he could just enjoy the last couple days at worst and at best maybe it would make him feel a little better. 

I turned on a Spotify playlist for him for when he is in the garage resting so he’s not in silence.  He seemed to like the music. He gets plenty of rest but I guess it was too late on the meds so he’s not recovering. 

My heart breaks every night when I talk to him before my shower and bed. He’s a very sweet dog that is just sad and miserable now.  He just lies there and tries to sleep. 

Here’s the past couple of days with the baby.