seems to really be becoming "my little boy". I pray this stays when I have to return to work and he goes to daycare. I'm so thankful I can work part days for a bit to be with him more. He's starting to really snuggle and trust. Trust is HUGE! There's probably a post somewhere in here about that back when Chelsi arrived home. I can hold him for a bit in his room while we listen to Brahm's and lay him down awake and rub his head, face and bottom and he'll go to sleep shortly after I walk out. He never even fusses now. He knows if he does I will come back and rub some more. He trusts. Makes me feel SO good! Even his grumpy isn't as grumpy as it was just a couple of weeks ago. He's been home 5 weeks now which totally amazes me. It's starting to feel like we've known him forever already and we only found out 3 1/2 months ago we were even having a baby.
It's amazing the changes a family can go through in a short period of time; good or bad. We had some rough and rocky last year and some mind-blowing amazing this year. Trust mind-blowing, amazing miracle. That's what this feels like. Even thinking back to visiting Korea last month to get him. It all felt so surreal and felt like a miracle. I mean it's a miracle this other Korean agency found us and our two little ones are together as their birth mother wanted. I so hope she reads our annual letters one day and knows this so she can feel better they will always know each other and love each other.
I think about my life and some of the pain; real pain; loss, fear, anxiety. But, how many people get to witness these kinds of miracles in their life. I witnessed a man paralyzed from the neck down walk again. I witnessed 2 beautiful children born of my husband and I. I witnessed 3 beautiful children travel all the way from another country to allow us to love them. I witnessed God putting all of this together and orchestrating all of it regardless of any mistakes we made along the way. I know there will always be pain in our lives, but I will try so hard to remember these miracles every day of my life. I know there will always be days when I'm at my wits end due to stress of being a working mother, but I will always try to look at my family and thank God for these incredible miracles. How on Earth did we get so lucky and deserve to witness this and enjoy these miracles in our lives? I feel incredibly blessed to have them here with me and feel little fingers around my neck and being hugged by yet another child God has bestowed on us.
Lisa
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