and I am SO tired!
We sold Brian's 93 Escort this morning (YAY!) because this week we upgraded him to a 2006 Focus; complete with air bags and anchors for the carseats. So happy to be in the same decade. It only took one day to sell his car...not even really.
I worked all day making supper for tonight. We had a turkey in the freezer that I got on sale last year, so it was time to get it out. I made turkey, mashed potatoes, sweet potatoes, green beans, stuffing, rolls and cranberry sauce. The kids and Brian were so full when they left the table they were all moaning. Everyone said there was not one thing that wasn't good. You see, Brian likes to joke and tell people I can't cook, but it's just not true. I never had time to want to until I started working part time. Now I have more time and actually want to spend part of my time making these meals. Tomorrow is bulgogi!
Tonight I mixed up the sugar cookie dough and colored it. Tomorrow we'll be rolling out and cutting camouflage sugar cookies. Then we'll send them along with some hot chocolate packs to Afghanistan. After making the cookies a couple of weeks ago that ended up looking camo colored we decided this would be fun. So, someone I know has a son overseas and she said he and his unit loves packages. I thought the kids would enjoy doing something nice for someone else. His mother also said to send a note from the kids, so he knows who to thank. The kids would think that's awesome getting mail from someone in the US military.
But, now I'm exhausted.
Saturday, December 11, 2010
6 Years of Christmas Greetings
We must have skipped 2005 when we were waiting for Chelsi's referral, but the kids LOVE wearing pjs with Santa hats for Christmas pictures, so we have 2004, forward. They have changed so much. And as Chase says, the tree is shrinking. He just could not believe after we put it together how short it keeps getting.
2004
2006
2007
2008
2009
And then 2010
2004
2006
2007
2008
2009
And then 2010
Monday, December 6, 2010
What a pair of women!
http://news.yahoo.com/s/ap/us_tv_kate_meets_sarah_palin
The two women of reality tv (and no I do not watch because they bug me so much) that a despise the most. They're both just women that constantly want their 15 minutes. I think that's the only reason Palin may run for Presidency, Lord help us. And Kate....well...I still think in the end she kept doing her show and putting her kids in the spotlight for herself. I mean really. Did anyone any longer believe it was so hard for a mom of 8 kids to make it when she really didn't have to do anything. It's kind of easy with nannies, cooks, clothes at your disposal and income from the show to-boot. Palin I just can't stand. She's fake and uses her family the same way. I still think her show is just a way to get even more notoriaty before running for 2012.
ICK!!! I'd probably vomit if I did watch it.
The two women of reality tv (and no I do not watch because they bug me so much) that a despise the most. They're both just women that constantly want their 15 minutes. I think that's the only reason Palin may run for Presidency, Lord help us. And Kate....well...I still think in the end she kept doing her show and putting her kids in the spotlight for herself. I mean really. Did anyone any longer believe it was so hard for a mom of 8 kids to make it when she really didn't have to do anything. It's kind of easy with nannies, cooks, clothes at your disposal and income from the show to-boot. Palin I just can't stand. She's fake and uses her family the same way. I still think her show is just a way to get even more notoriaty before running for 2012.
ICK!!! I'd probably vomit if I did watch it.
Sunday, December 5, 2010
Just live
I'm a Type A, obssessive compulsive person. That's not easy to have them together. One can feed the other. For a very long time I've had to control everything. I live for structure and schedule. I'm trying very hard to change.
Not that all of those traits are bad, but they can be hard to live with. Afterall, does anyone really have control of their life? In reality I never have. I know that. Everything since we've been married has taught me that there is no real control. There's only God's control and how we react to his actions and the actions of others' free will. I have decided that I'm going to try to just live. When my work schedule changed from fulltime to parttime I was terrified. I wanted it so badly for over 10 years, but I wasn't sure how we were really going to do it. But, now that I've been doing it for 3 months, I realize how much I love it. As much as I'd hoped; since I was scared that I may end up disliking it. I always have fears with any big changes in life. That's just me.
Things aren't easy, but we're making it. It will be a little tougher next month when my insurance premiums go up and my paycheck goes down $200/month. But, I'm still very thankful for my time to spend with my babies before they grow up and my time to do grocery shopping and the little things I need to get done without the insanity. I know it will end, but I'm living in today and what I have now. Until my parttime job ends and I have to return to fulltime next year I will continue to enjoy every second of it. I will continue to make cookies, pies and cinnamon rolls with my kids helping. I will continue to snuggle that many more moments. I will continue to be the one home when the get off school; to help with homework and start supper. And the little kids, for a little longer, will have special grandparent time on the days I work.
Another thing I've realized is that when it comes to having kids you never have to say you're having more or you're done. You can make your choices as God or life leads you. I can honestly say I don't know where our family stands. I'm happy with our 5. Very busy and happy with our 5. But, we have 6 years until we age out of Korea; withstanding the Korean government discontinuing adoptions in 2012 as planned. We never know if we will decide to go into foster care one day either. Now, before friends and family freak out when they read this, this does not mean we're having more children. It just means we don't know. I do know I do not want to parent more babies. If the right situation came along, maybe, but I sincerely doubt we would. I still have the dream of adopting an older child one day. But, again, things change as life goes on and I'm trying very hard not to plan my life away. I'm trying very hard just to live. Live and wait for God's signs. If they never come then maybe we're never meant to expand our family. And, honestly, I'm happy either way.
It feels so good to make a decision like this. I've been grappling with it for a bit now. My love for my kids is SO immense. That love spreads to other children with no families to call their own, but I now know after much thought that that doesn't mean we are their family. It just means I need to pray for them to find families and maybe find other avenues to help.
Not that all of those traits are bad, but they can be hard to live with. Afterall, does anyone really have control of their life? In reality I never have. I know that. Everything since we've been married has taught me that there is no real control. There's only God's control and how we react to his actions and the actions of others' free will. I have decided that I'm going to try to just live. When my work schedule changed from fulltime to parttime I was terrified. I wanted it so badly for over 10 years, but I wasn't sure how we were really going to do it. But, now that I've been doing it for 3 months, I realize how much I love it. As much as I'd hoped; since I was scared that I may end up disliking it. I always have fears with any big changes in life. That's just me.
Things aren't easy, but we're making it. It will be a little tougher next month when my insurance premiums go up and my paycheck goes down $200/month. But, I'm still very thankful for my time to spend with my babies before they grow up and my time to do grocery shopping and the little things I need to get done without the insanity. I know it will end, but I'm living in today and what I have now. Until my parttime job ends and I have to return to fulltime next year I will continue to enjoy every second of it. I will continue to make cookies, pies and cinnamon rolls with my kids helping. I will continue to snuggle that many more moments. I will continue to be the one home when the get off school; to help with homework and start supper. And the little kids, for a little longer, will have special grandparent time on the days I work.
Another thing I've realized is that when it comes to having kids you never have to say you're having more or you're done. You can make your choices as God or life leads you. I can honestly say I don't know where our family stands. I'm happy with our 5. Very busy and happy with our 5. But, we have 6 years until we age out of Korea; withstanding the Korean government discontinuing adoptions in 2012 as planned. We never know if we will decide to go into foster care one day either. Now, before friends and family freak out when they read this, this does not mean we're having more children. It just means we don't know. I do know I do not want to parent more babies. If the right situation came along, maybe, but I sincerely doubt we would. I still have the dream of adopting an older child one day. But, again, things change as life goes on and I'm trying very hard not to plan my life away. I'm trying very hard just to live. Live and wait for God's signs. If they never come then maybe we're never meant to expand our family. And, honestly, I'm happy either way.
It feels so good to make a decision like this. I've been grappling with it for a bit now. My love for my kids is SO immense. That love spreads to other children with no families to call their own, but I now know after much thought that that doesn't mean we are their family. It just means I need to pray for them to find families and maybe find other avenues to help.
Saturday, December 4, 2010
Christmas Cookies and Family Anniversary
We don't really have a designated day for our family anniversary. We can basically pick any day between 11/28 and 12/22 to celebrate. How's that for an anniversary?
A lot of families with adoptees celebrate their child's Gotcha Day, Airplane Day, Family Day, etc., but with biological children as well, we decided not to. We always have on their first and we still acknowledge it, but we do not have any big celebration. We don't do gifts either. But, on our family anniversary we do celebrate. Not with gifts either, but just by being a family, being together and doing something special. We've gone out for dinner in the past, but this year I ordered some airplane cookie cutters and decided we'd make Christmas sugar cookies and then make some of these too.
Chase, Kaelin, Chelsi and I worked on these most of the day. You may not be able to tell though. Some are pretty oddly painted with icing, but the kids worked hard at them. I also colored the dough, so that the trees would be green, the gingerbread men would be brown and the airplanes would be about the same color as the Korean Air planes. I thought the color came out well, but it's hard to paint them with icing. Nonetheless, the kids had a great time and they were YUMMY! We also painted a gingerbread man to look like each of us. Kaelin painted me, Brian and Cole. Chase painted himself and the girls asked me to put them in a hanbok, so I painted them and Jaemin.
After loads of laundry, cleaning the house from top to bottom, making beds and making cookies ALL DAY LONG, this girl is beat!
A lot of families with adoptees celebrate their child's Gotcha Day, Airplane Day, Family Day, etc., but with biological children as well, we decided not to. We always have on their first and we still acknowledge it, but we do not have any big celebration. We don't do gifts either. But, on our family anniversary we do celebrate. Not with gifts either, but just by being a family, being together and doing something special. We've gone out for dinner in the past, but this year I ordered some airplane cookie cutters and decided we'd make Christmas sugar cookies and then make some of these too.
Chase, Kaelin, Chelsi and I worked on these most of the day. You may not be able to tell though. Some are pretty oddly painted with icing, but the kids worked hard at them. I also colored the dough, so that the trees would be green, the gingerbread men would be brown and the airplanes would be about the same color as the Korean Air planes. I thought the color came out well, but it's hard to paint them with icing. Nonetheless, the kids had a great time and they were YUMMY! We also painted a gingerbread man to look like each of us. Kaelin painted me, Brian and Cole. Chase painted himself and the girls asked me to put them in a hanbok, so I painted them and Jaemin.
After loads of laundry, cleaning the house from top to bottom, making beds and making cookies ALL DAY LONG, this girl is beat!
Thursday, December 2, 2010
Thankfulness #13
Like I said in my post, just before this. We had to have an electrician come out because the night before Thanksgiving our electric fireplace smelled when Brian turned it on and he realized it had melted the plug and surge protector. For safety's sake, I wanted it checked out. I'm so thankful he didn't think it was anything major. He said there was really no damage and rewired a new outlet. He said it could have been lightning from the storms that night or it could have just been a bad plug end cap that came with the fireplace. He told us to replace it and it should be fine. We got off cheaper than I thought too. I had no idea how much an electrician goes for nowadays. But, happy it didn't break the bank.
Sick and Tired
I'm SO tired. Jaemin had a terrible night last night. He has a terrible cold and for him it causes reactive airway (basically asthma). So he barked all night, in my bed, on top of me and then puked snot several times. TMI, I know. I had a rag by my bedside so I could catch him every little bit. About 4 in the morning I decided I was just going to take the kids to school and come back and sleep...yeah with 2 little kids. Don't think so. Not to mention the electrician was coming to look at an outlet where a plug blew last week and another guy was coming to cut down our dying oak.
Instead of sleeping, I washed and folded 4 loads of laundry, nebulized and administered meds to one little boy, wrote out Christmas cards with the help of a 5 year old, finished wrapping presents that arrived today, cleaned the girls' room out and dusted. Tonight, I'm just stopped up and tired.....again. On a good night that poor boy doesn't sleep well, therefore, I don't sleep well. On a bad night, well, it's just BAD!
Here's to a night of rest? Hopefully? Maybe? One day?
Instead of sleeping, I washed and folded 4 loads of laundry, nebulized and administered meds to one little boy, wrote out Christmas cards with the help of a 5 year old, finished wrapping presents that arrived today, cleaned the girls' room out and dusted. Tonight, I'm just stopped up and tired.....again. On a good night that poor boy doesn't sleep well, therefore, I don't sleep well. On a bad night, well, it's just BAD!
Here's to a night of rest? Hopefully? Maybe? One day?
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