Happy Anniversary to Us!

Yep, today's our 15th!!  And what does Brian say to me this morning?  He says "you know, in another 15 years we'll both be 50".  Do you really think I want to think about that right now?  :)

Anyways, pretty much a n0rmal day, but he stopped at the store and got some roses to put on the table and wrote me a poem.  It was actually very sweet.  I'm not allowed to reiterate it anywhere to anyone ever, so I can't post it here.  :)

After 15 years, we do still love each other, but God I'm so tired all the time.  There's hardly anytime to show it anymore.  It will get better when they get a little older, right?

Lisa

Danged 'ole rainy days

What's a boy to do?

Well, I can watch the rain for a bit.  Yeah, that's all well and nice, but there is surely something better to do.  I have a snake...I can play with him.  Maybe I'll just read for a bit.  I'm a smart boy, ya know.  Okay, I'm a happy boy!

We did it and he looks older

 

 

 

 

 

We knew the day was, inevitably, coming.  He was going to need his FIRST haircut.  I decided tonight was the night.  I gave him a sucker and Cole took pictures.  He did REALLY well and LOVED his sucker.  Unfortunately, now the curls are gone.  Maybe they'll come back and maybe they won't.  Either way we were going to have to say goodbye eventually.  I saved a lock for his baby book and a lock for his birth mother.  He looks all grown up now.  :(

BTW, it really was just a trim.  I didn't take very much off.

Catchin' Up

So while I was sick, I was still getting out the camera from time-to-time, but just didn't have the energy to upload and post.  We really haven't had too much going on or any stories to tell.  Stories are always best if I can put them on right after they happen before I, every so easily, forget the details.

J reverted back to wanting to be in the carrier while I did dishes the other day.  He promptly fell asleep.



The kids were able to play outside all weekend.

 

J and C got to play at home with mommy today, after a morning of errands.





And snacktime over the weekend.

A little secret about me

Besides loving photographs and especially taking them of my kids, I write.  Not many people know this AT ALL!  I don't even let Brian read what I write.

Over the years I have a small collection of poems and stories and even some lyrics.  I've been writing poems since our first daughter.  She was a huge inspiration.  Then, I started writing stories about our 2nd daughter.  It's really just a series of children's stories that describe her encounters in life.  I've written some lyrics.  Though, I am NOT musically inclines whatsoever, so the lyrics are what they are.  But, sometimes there are nights that I wake and can't sleep until I write my thoughts down.  I keep a diary by my bed and this is all I write in it.  Scribbles of poems, lyrics and stories until I get them the way I want.

Now, what I'd really love is to find someone willing to publish the stories.  They are about adoption somewhat and just being a kids; mostly.  They are a tribute to my sweet little girls!

Lisa

Thoughts for another mother

Tonight while the older kids were playing downstairs, we were playing with J.  He was walking back and forth between him.  As he wobbled his way over to me I thought how much his birth mother is missing.  She is missing such big moments in these kids' lives.  I can't imagine the loss she feels in that.  I pray that one day she knows and is comforted, as much as possible, that we love her children as much as humanly possible by anyone.  We love them to the ends of the Earth and more.  We love holding them when they cry; whether they're upset or happy.  We love every little hug and kiss along with learning moments.

I wish I could tell her how much we love them.  I wish she could see, just for a moment, a glimpse into our lives.  I mostly wish that she is able to come to peace with her pain and have a good life.  And I promise we will always do our best to give our children the best lives possible with all the love and support we have.

I just needed to get those thoughts out as I felt sad for those moments in J's life, knowing how much I would miss missing them.  From one mom to another.  (To J's Korea mom)

Lisa

Delay

I know it's been a little while, for me anyways, on not posting anything.  I'm usually able to post at least a couple of times a week.  But, this week, I have two sick kiddos and myself.  So, while C is getting better, J still has a little tailend of croup and I have bronchitis/pneumonia.  When I'm feeling better, it will be back to normal.

Youn-su, I was worried you would think I abandoned the blog.  I'll get some pics of J up soon.

Lisa