We left at 8:15am. Will return about 8:15pm. All to watch her compete in the 4x800 and 4x400 her senior year. First and last events of every meet. But worth all of this for the past four years. She and her team are going to state. And some records were broken by some of the kids. Great day for them.
Her freshman year she went as a 4x400 alternate. This year she earned her way in both events and has done that for three years now. Proud of her and the team.
#tracklife #supportingourkids #itsmay
We’re leaving soon for one of my happy places. It’s just my daughter and I. Our first trip just the two of us but we’ve been planning this for awhile. Not literally planning but intending to go. And I got my flags out of the garage for Spring. Yes. You cannot see the US flag but it’s in the photo. I have them in the respectful flag order. But I always want my Korean born kids to also be proud that they are Korean American.
#patriotism #countdowntovacation #senioryearwinddown
#rememberthem #lostson #mychildrenaremylife
Yep. Good days. We are having them and feeling God’s comfort and warmth. I’m more thankful than ever for every day the kids are with us. I always was but I guess I’m just more conscious of it than ever. Another 9 hour day of track that’s exhausting it well spent with some of the people I love dearly and after 9 years of having of 1-2 kids in track consistently it’s drawing to a close. I’ve also learned , after losing Cole, not to dread the busy days of running or long days of sitting all day to watch their minute or two of shining. It’s easy to not see that when you’re in the throes of parenting and maybe you have more kids to juggle at one time than feels doable. It’s okay. I promise. Just do it and enjoy it.
I’m trying really hard to no longer sweat the small stuff. Very hard for an OCD person. Had myself a good cry tonight. They’re getting ver random, but I think it’s because I’ve been keeping busy, How can I not? I have a senior and two kids running track. It’s definitely enough to mask and shove back things that could be going on in my head. So they pop out randomly when I have a slow moment.
#frizzy #raincurls #badhairday
It’s been an entire month. An entire 30+ days without our son. I’m doing okay. I’m doing better. But, yesterday I saw something and my impulse was to call him to ask him about it and within a split second I realized I couldn’t. That was a hard moment but one that was going to happen.
For the first time in over a month the corner of my counter is empty. For weeks it sat there with lists of people to send thank yous to, checks and money from people to forward to the charities and other things to take care of. Don’t get me wrong. We’re still dealing with things of his to close out and take care of that just takes time but it’s dwindling down and allowing my thoughts to not be constantly reminded and consumed in utter sadness all of the time.
I still have a little trouble with finding joy. The track meets are hard. I haven’t gotten back to yelling at and for everyone but I’m going and I’m clapping to cheer the kids on. And when I go downstairs I get to see his favorite hats hanging where nothing was ever hung before and instead there was just emptiness that seemed awkward. Deer mounts on the wall that he begged me to hang while he was traveling and a jersey framed that he loved. All things that can now make me smile and think of him.
#missyou. #lostson #tryingtoheal
It was haircut morning a few weeks ago. Ugh. It’s time again since the hair on the heads of the guys in this house grows FAST!! But I had always cut hair out of necessity since everyone was young to save money. Could you imagine for 4 guys how much it would cost monthly? Now they just prefer I do it. We had a friend doing it and she did a great job but she decided she didn’t want to cut hair anymore. The girls don’t get theirs cut often but when they do it’s chunks like this. And the shades of hair in this house crack me up. We just need red.
#haircuts #savemoney #monthlysavings
