but it felt so big. Not large as in expensive, but large as in meaningful.
I had to stop at the craft store tonight because I wanted to make some new ornaments to include J. I had made some for each child a few years ago and I want to paint new ones with their Korean names; to include Jaemin. While I was there I realized he had no stocking for the fireplace. So I studied each stocking and thought about whether he would still like it when he was a bit older. You know you can't get a baby stocking for a boy who will, one day, be a big boy. So I found this deep blue stocking with a white cuff that looked a lot like big brother Chase's red one. I got new holders that matched....all 5. It felt a little poignant for some reason.
I guess with all 4 of the older kids we'd known we were having each one of them the Christmas before they each joined our family. I was always preparing so much for them; including buying their stocking for the next Christmas. This is the first time I've done it backwards. Now, I just need to get him a "Baby's 1st Christmas" ornament so he can have one like his big brothers do.
Wow, really....I shouldn't be shocked anymore. 6 months later I'm still shocked or shaken a little that we have this sweet little boy in our house. It really seems so surreal when I actually have moments of time to think about it.
Love you J!
Mom
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